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Inertia applies to life as well as physics

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Feb. 20th, 2002 | 02:52 am
mood: thoughtfulthoughtful

The longer I go without writing, the easier it gets to not write, and the harder it gets to write. Taking a day off soon tuns into two days, then three, then a week and the week melts into two, and suddenly it has reached February 20th and I haven't updated since the 3rd.

I need to work on this. I must will myself to write everyday, because if I don't, then I will lose whatever skill I once had.

It's funny -- it used to be that I would analyze my day as if writing a journal entry. The whole day I would collect journal-ish thoughts and find that by evening, only some were worth writing about and the others could be left neglected. Even still I occasionally have thoughts of rants that I wish to write, and yet somehow, the writing never happens.

I suppose it is because life has suddenly become very complicated. My world was, up until a couple weeks ago, hanging together only by threads, and in the past week it feels as though it has come crashing down around me. My mother is ill, my father is abusive, my brother is upset... and my friends all have dramas of their own. I feel inclined to be there for them and yet, I don't really know how, in some of the dramas, and feel that it is not my place to make certain comments in others. And in addition to all of this, I have homework and midterms and ballroom practices to schedule.

Ah, when it rains, it pours.

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About inertia...

from: arcataengeneura
date: Feb. 20th, 2002 01:15 am (UTC)

I couldn't agree more.

So nice to read you again. Always, do I think about your mother when I read your journal. It seems you're in such a difficult place right now. You're an amazingly strong person. I sincerely hope you find a few breaks in those pouring clouds in the near future.

I never mentioned it, but near about the last time I made a comment in your journal, I went to your site and read quite a bit of stuff... poetry and such. What really captivated me were the art and photos you posted. I saw in them the eye of a beauty seeker, and was moved deeply. They speak of an inner life that thrives as a universe of its own. You are extraordinary. Thank you so much for sharing the beauty you see. It really does matter quite a lot.


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