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Oct. 2nd, 2001 | 10:53 pm
mood: depresseddepressed

I think I have forgotten how to kiss someone.

It's been nearly a year and while that probably shouldn't bother me, it does somehow. I am rapidly becoming very insecure and beginning to actually believe that I will never, ever get a date.

It feels like everyone I know has that "someone" and then there's me and though I have many friends I don't have anyone special. And I have tremendous feelings of inadequacy about all of this.

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Liz

Re: dispelling the myth

from: stellae
date: Oct. 2nd, 2001 08:11 pm (UTC)
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You're absolutely right. And the thing is, I can tell myself until I am blue in the face that I have a great life (which I do) and lots of friends (which I do) and more important things to focus on (which I also do), and still I can't shake this sadness that is sort of settling over me and it becomes a downward spiral since it bothers my liberated single-woman mentality to think that I need such a thing.

There is also a nother piece to the story which is that I fell completely in love with this guy over the summer completely against my will and I know he likes me but because of a whole bunch of factors (the biggest being that he is in Georgia and I am in New York) he does not want to be with me and is instead dating this other girl and it's giving me tremendous feelings of inadequacy.

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Andie

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from: swirling_poetry
date: Oct. 2nd, 2001 08:56 pm (UTC)
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Wait a minute, you are not the only single person you know. I am another single person you know. And I understand completely, and I feel exactly the same way. But then again, I've been insecure about everything since I've came here, but that's a different point.

My main point is that I know lots of people who go to our school who feel just the same as we do. And sometimes you just have to wait...a long time. Trust me, I have been.

We should get together again instead of just waving at each other in hallways. But that's another topic.

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Vanillahyacinth

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from: vanillahyacinth
date: Oct. 2nd, 2001 09:55 pm (UTC)
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Liz dear, I'm sorry about your bitterness and disappointment; please try to take courage through God and have faith that he won't give you anyone until the time is right. Not everyone has "someone"; I'm single too, as are most of my friends, and it's all cool--we can focus on academics and friend-making, which is what this time in life is for! Cheer up, dearie! I love you!

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