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Aug. 30th, 2001 | 01:28 pm

I had a very frightening dream last night. I don't remember now what it was about, of course. I think it was about me dating this one guy and then cheating on him with this other guy and apologizing and feeling just all around really really bad. Or at least, that is what I surmise since that sort of scenario is pretty much what I've been thinking about all morning.

Though in reality, there is no chance of me actually dating the first guy. And very little that I would actually see the second guy in order to hook up with him, and even if I did, the likelyhood that I would have a boyfriend at the time to be cheating on is extremely minimal.

But that is all really weird and random.

I am back in NYC and I love it. And leaving this year was better than last year -- no tearful goodbyes, no hugs that seemed like they'd last forever, just a quick hug and a wave, a couple "I love you"s and I strode down the jetway, alone.

As I was on the plane, I thought about how it was really only two years ago the first time I took a flight alone. Truly alone, meaning there was nobody else I knew on the aircraft and I couldn't wait for the flight to be over. Now, it seems standard proceedure to me to fly this way. Sort of like I am no longer afraid of NYC subways (at any time of day really) and feel comfortable getting myself to many places in the city, even ones that I have never been.

Although the number of triangles and odd angles and intersections in the Village does still confuse me somewhat. But I've got a year to learn at least.

And since it is now 1:30, it is time for me to go and do something productive with my day.

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