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When you spend a week running on adrenaline...

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Apr. 4th, 2001 | 10:39 pm
mood: indescribable
music: DMB - Ants Marching

You crash afterward.

I spent so much of last week being hyper about everything that I had to get done that now my sleeping patterns are very... confused, I guess is the word. I wake up at 8:30 but don't get up, then I'm sleepy and take a nap sometime between 6 and 10 (not the whole four hours... usually 6 to 8 or else 8 to 10) and then I get up and do work for a few hours, going to bed sometime around 2 am. Tell me this isn't weird.

I mean, mid-afternoon naps are normal, and no naps are normal... but evening naps? Odd odd.

Although I guess it's just that I come home from school and I'm tired. I don't have a good reason to be tired, really... I guess it's just that the stress is getting to me. 3 weeks left of class. That means that I have 3 weeks in which to write something interesting as a play to be presented. I suppose I should just start writing on the subject and then see about adapting it later, but still it is daunting somehow.

Ah well. A weekend project.

For now, it is time to go to Starbucks for a late-night hot chocolate (just because I haven't had one in a while and want one) and then to come back and work on writing a satire. Also. I have extra Bible reading to do, and I should prepare one of the study things for Friday.

Meetings are confused this week because of the Memorial, but then it is the Memorial and that is special. (And this one is particularly special for me, having been baptized just last week. My baptism is a good thing... I can look at my pictures from it and think about it and just smile because I know that I have chosen to do something with my life... something that is good and important, and that purpose is the most wonderful feeling. Not an elated cloud-nine feeling, really, but just a warmth in my heart and an inexplicable joy that nothing can touch).

School is being evil. I don't know quite how to set up my course schedule for fall... and I have to go declare myself to be a bio major, even though I know I won't stay a bio major. I was given wrong information last summer and that was bad... and I made a bad impression on the department head I think, so now I will have to work to get back in his good graces. Perhaps I will just declare a biochem major and track into the Neural Science major from there. The perils of college and having sophmore standing. I would be perfectly content to wait a year to declare my major... but because of my credits, I am required to declare now. Grr.

And there is an odd bursar stop on my registration ability that I will have to go and clear up. Perhaps I will do that on Friday morning between recitations.

I am nervous to get my chem midterm back. And at the same time, I don't care that much. It's one test... and in the grand scheme of things, it's not going to matter that much anyway... as long as my GPA stays above a 3.5 (which it should), how I did one one paper or one test here or there won't matter.

It is spring! The weather was sunny and beautiful and almost warm enough to take off my coat and wear short sleeves for a while and that was very lovely. I am looking forward to new leaves on trees and new flowers and all of the newness that comes in the springtime. I love the changing of seasons. I am also looking forward to wearing pretty pinks and purples and pastels of other sorts because I am a very pastel person. I drifted away from pastels for a while, but I have returned to them because they are lovely colors.

I have old clothing that I have decided to get rid of that needs to be donated some place. And I need to dance for a while tonight. But that will wait until 1 am or so when there are no people in the studio downstairs and I am free to exhaust myself and humiliate myself and blast my music as loud as I would like.

This has been a very scattered journal entry. I apologize.

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