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Dec. 15th, 2000 | 02:33 am
mood: blahblah
music: BSB - Larger Than Life

It's funny, I think about all the people who tell me they are anxious to get out into the real world and have a real job and so on and I start to wonder what's wrong with me. I sit on my bed in my dorm room and think to myself "you know, it's a very odd living arangement living in a dorm... having someone else sleeping two steps away from you, but actually, it's not so bad."

I was struck by something a professor said once. He said that he had never left the world of school... he went to college, went to graduate, did his post-doc and became a professor. He doesn't know what it's like to survive by working a "real" job. My life will probably go the same way. I will never leave the world of academia, most likely. I will go to school and get my MD-PhD and become a doctor and a professor at some reasearch university's hospital (hopefully in New York), and I'll live in a small apartment with a cat and maybe a husband... if I find the right person, which is actually quite unlikely, I think, but one never can tell. But in all of that, I will never have a "real" job where I go to work every day and do some defined task. I will always in some way be connected with a learning institution and that will make my life very untypical. But I can't imagine a lifestyle where I'm not learning... where I'm not in school of some sort. I may complain about classes and so on, but all in all, I LIKE being here. I LIKE my life. I LIKE being a student.

It's just weird. Because I listen to friends say "So you'll be in school a long time, then. 4 years, 5 years..." and I think to myself no, more like 10 or 12.

"Yeah, I'm graduating in 4 years and I'm going to get a job in computers making 80 to 100 thousand dollars a year." then there's me. I don't even worry about my starting salary when I graduate because chances are, I won't have to get a real job for a long time. But I never thought money was that imporant anyway. Nice to have but not that imoprtant.

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from: anonymous
date: Dec. 15th, 2000 05:07 pm (UTC)

I will be a literature professor. I was told this by my literature professor who said, "You get 5 months off a year to write." That sold me. My two passions are learning and writing. It's perfect.
It scares me sometimes, though, not being able to say, "Oh yeah, I'll graduate in 4 years and make this much money..." but then I remember that even those people don't know for sure.

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