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Jan. 16th, 2006 | 09:03 pm

My life is not going so well, right now.

Lots of trips to Minnesota have put my research behind. Every day that passes, it continues to fall further behind. I don't know what to do about this... but the trips are necessary. The research will still be there. Grad school will be here. My mom really won't.

It feels like every week, another organ is failing. The kidneys went a while ago (or at least, one of them did). The intestines a month and a half ago. The still start and sputter as if there's some little life left in them, but generally, they don't work.

And now it's the liver. It's releasing ammonia, which acts as a sedative... what's to be done about that, I wonder.

She had said that her death was going to go in the following way... that either I would leave or her brother would leave and then she would go, peacefully.

I left on Saturday. He leaves (or left) today.

Tomorrow, it will have been 11 years since my grandfather (her dad) died. I wonder if she will also die on his anniversary.

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rula

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from: rula
date: Jan. 17th, 2006 06:52 am (UTC)
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i'm so sorry, liz. you're in my thoughts & prayers.

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Paul, Evil Administrator

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from: eviladmin
date: Jan. 17th, 2006 09:01 am (UTC)
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I'm sorry to hear this, my thoughts are with you - call if you need anything...

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Darcy

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from: darcydodo
date: Jan. 17th, 2006 03:48 pm (UTC)
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I'm so sorry. I don't really know what else to say, but I'm so sorry.

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Mark

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from: anticato146
date: Jan. 17th, 2006 05:20 pm (UTC)
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lots more *hugs*...

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jillB

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from: jilflirt
date: Jan. 17th, 2006 08:09 pm (UTC)
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Please call if you need someone to hang out with you or listen to you. I'm available pretty much all the time.

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Alex

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from: nerdyobsession
date: Jan. 18th, 2006 01:25 am (UTC)
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lots of love liz. as far as the research goes, i know that falling behind is frustrating, but i'm pretty sure that you, of all people, will be able to catch up. I'm glad I got to see you, and glad I got to see your mom. Yesterday was rough of course, and leaving was really hard on my Dad, as I'm sure it was for you on saturday. If you want to talk or something, you are always welcome to call. It really was good to see you. hang in there

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oh allison my aim is true

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from: alamoo
date: Jan. 18th, 2006 02:52 pm (UTC)
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So sorry Liz. Don't know what to say except *hugs*

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